UNKLE - In A State
To be immersed into school work and personal productivity is a feat to myself, or is it? I end up getting confused over priorities. Damn I wished I didn't play around so much in Year One. But then again, where WERE the STA facilities in Tanglin?
Time is running out and I'm worried for the Year 2s, especially myself. This year's Year 1s have the privilege to access facilities the moment they step into RP. We didn't. Therefore we're somewhat on the same par as them.
Even more surprisingly though, Year 2s are not as eager to embrace the facilities as the Year 1s. WHY? Because again, we're pioneer batch - the guinea pigs. Students entered STA in 2005, probably 70% NOT intending to come here OR assuming that it was just another Mass Com Easy-to-score-slacker Diploma. The passion, the vibe is just not strong enough to convince others and ourselves that THIS IS NEW MEDIA. PASSION FOR THE ARTS HAS TO BE THERE.
Therefore, I am never happy with my work because of the people we're comparing with. NYP, TP Design? RP can make it lah, but where are the passionate army of people who are willing to bring RP to that level or higher? WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY?
Maybe I'm kan chiong or something and you guys are probably cursing/swearing but yes, we're already mid-Year 2. I made an oath to myself that I'll be one of those bringing STA to greater heights. This oath gives me something to work towards, defining my goals of coming to RP in the first place.
But I can't do it alone.
Time is running out and I'm worried for the Year 2s, especially myself. This year's Year 1s have the privilege to access facilities the moment they step into RP. We didn't. Therefore we're somewhat on the same par as them.
Even more surprisingly though, Year 2s are not as eager to embrace the facilities as the Year 1s. WHY? Because again, we're pioneer batch - the guinea pigs. Students entered STA in 2005, probably 70% NOT intending to come here OR assuming that it was just another Mass Com Easy-to-score-slacker Diploma. The passion, the vibe is just not strong enough to convince others and ourselves that THIS IS NEW MEDIA. PASSION FOR THE ARTS HAS TO BE THERE.
Therefore, I am never happy with my work because of the people we're comparing with. NYP, TP Design? RP can make it lah, but where are the passionate army of people who are willing to bring RP to that level or higher? WHERE THE FUCK ARE THEY?
Maybe I'm kan chiong or something and you guys are probably cursing/swearing but yes, we're already mid-Year 2. I made an oath to myself that I'll be one of those bringing STA to greater heights. This oath gives me something to work towards, defining my goals of coming to RP in the first place.
But I can't do it alone.
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So all this "trying to fulfil my oath" shit is stressing me out. Again, TIME is the hardest resource to attain. I'm having difficulties prioritizing.
Let me see huh - School work, "Shoot Jose" film, EMProduction admin matters, Northeast MusicMix 06, Heineken's Thirst Studio 06, Myuk the Animation, Portfolio design, Animator.IG admin matters, etc.
ON TOP OF THAT, I've non-work/school shit. Like updating my really old passport photo, creating student EZlink, buying new contacts (I've been living on a pair of monthly ones for 3 months), eating out with family, etc.
No worries, everything SHOULD be fine. Right?
After all, you know who, or rather WHAT I've been up to? I'm a vicious, horrible, malicious, manipulative, selfish, WEAK twat. Our dear mut here has been turning to physical companionship to have temporary relief of stress. And that wasn't my only intention (the other's on an even darker side which I don't wish to elaborate), neither was it just one party.
The only reason why I must stop is because of one particular party - he doesn't deserve to be confused by my behaviour (though I stated my intentions to him very clearly at the beginning). I will stop toying with his feelings as well as mine.
I'm unable to Love again after learning what Love really is, and basically just fucked my life, probably destroyed part of others' lives.
I'm going to shatter in fact, very soon.
Let me see huh - School work, "Shoot Jose" film, EMProduction admin matters, Northeast MusicMix 06, Heineken's Thirst Studio 06, Myuk the Animation, Portfolio design, Animator.IG admin matters, etc.
ON TOP OF THAT, I've non-work/school shit. Like updating my really old passport photo, creating student EZlink, buying new contacts (I've been living on a pair of monthly ones for 3 months), eating out with family, etc.
No worries, everything SHOULD be fine. Right?
After all, you know who, or rather WHAT I've been up to? I'm a vicious, horrible, malicious, manipulative, selfish, WEAK twat. Our dear mut here has been turning to physical companionship to have temporary relief of stress. And that wasn't my only intention (the other's on an even darker side which I don't wish to elaborate), neither was it just one party.
The only reason why I must stop is because of one particular party - he doesn't deserve to be confused by my behaviour (though I stated my intentions to him very clearly at the beginning). I will stop toying with his feelings as well as mine.
I'm unable to Love again after learning what Love really is, and basically just fucked my life, probably destroyed part of others' lives.
I'm going to shatter in fact, very soon.
posted by GY at 11:48 PM
9 Comments:
Your responsibility is to yourself, not STA. Keep that in mind and don't neglect your portfolio. Great works inspire great works. That's all you need to do.
Your responsibility is to yourself, not STA. Keep that in mind and don't neglect your portfolio. Great works inspire great works. That's all you need to do.
shat. double post
Okay, PAPdude, There's such a function called delete in this world..
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Anyways, Good that you know your life well. Just glad that you're having responsibility; but always remember even good personalities need QC.
Yes, "Time and tide waits for no man", but "
He who cannot obey himself will be commanded."
- I believe that you, too, do not know Love yet. We are still young. You have not Fucked up anyone. One day just sit down and think.
"I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour".
Guest book doesn't work..
"Whatever happens, Your
*a onion completion am*
Am I.:D:):D:)
Always follow Morals.
P.S. Use a solver;)"
Hey gy, although this entry has been post quite sometime back, i still like to say something.
it doesn't matter which school we're in, portfolio is the thing that they see. school is just a building. it's our work that make the school worthy. i no longer bother whether the rest of the STA are making any effort or not. If they have the hunger of success, they will do something about it.
Well, be glad that we know what we want to achieve by the time we graduate! (:
chim!
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